Day 4 - Your Sibling

Ok so I missed a lot of days there - I was on holiday ^_^

Dear Adam,

Hi! Um... this is awkward. I don't really know what to say...

It's not like we're not close. When you were really young - I actually can't remember it that well, bah humbug long-term memory fail - I always looked after you loads, and because you were so much younger you just seemed lovely.

Then when you were, I don't know, four? Five? I started finding you more annoying - we fought a little bit, and we drifted apart. It's not like we hated each other, far from it, we just had nothing in common and that was when I was sort of being antisocial with the world and his wife so yeah, our relationship basically consisted of teasing each other. But it was ok, it was us and we were comfortable with it.

Lately things are so much better! I mean, I don't think we'll ever be those siblings that can tell each other everything - you are SO much younger than me and I always feel like I'm corrupting your innocence! - but we're close again. I know exactly what caused that too - still no idea what possessed me to have an obsession over Transformers, but hey, it was something that we could both take an interest in and that brought us back together.

Then we started talking in general more as well, and I do feel like I can tell you stuff I can't tell mum and dad, sometimes - mostly because, THANK GOODNESS, you've stopped telling them absolutely everything! You used to be such a tattle-tale! I was too though, we kind of just constantly got each other back in that way I guess.

I WILL convert you to k-pop XD Not completely, that's above and beyond weird, but a bit! The fact that you're starting to like the music is certainly progress!

One thing though. You still freak me out with how feminine you act sometimes. I swear you act more feminine than me sometimes, always wanting hugs from mum, and IT FREAKS ME OUT MORE THAN I WILL EVER LET ON. If you weren't head over heels for Zara I'd wonder.

Oh yeah. Zaraaaaaa XD(It had to be done. It is obligatory!!!)

You're really smart, too, your maths skills probably surpass mine at that age no problemo, and now you're reading Harry Potter hopefully your English'll improve too! Haha yeah sorry but your grammar... it needs to be fixed. Lol.

Oh. And sorry for being such a bad example... I know if it wasn't for me you wouldn't be as lazy as you are or scared of spiders (lololololololololol it amuses me so much how that just APPEARED last month), or gradually more antisocial. I'm only just starting to realise how bad a role model I've been for you in some ways and I'm sorry.

And lastly - I do love you. Even if I'm totally incapable of saying it to your face.

-Emma

This did not improve my mood. Sigh.